Last Bus Tonight by George Choundas
Late last night she saw a bus go by. A hot gassy roaring bulk loomed out of the dark and showed its face, lit up like a carnival. No route or destination across the front. Just, “LAST BUS TONIGHT.” It was the kind of thing an uncle might say, all rough cheer and cologne camaraderie.
She was outside the hospital when she saw the bus. In the grass, next to a tree. They never show you what happens after. They never show you how the loved one is supposed to head home and pretend, exactly.
It’s said the poor always give easier than the rich. This bus proved it, this lost and trailing remnant of the day disappeared. The hour was so late, and the day’s battles so multiple, and the souls still upright and prevailing so few, that destinations and things like destinations were obsolete. Mattered none.
It didn’t occur to her to take it. Or to not take it. She saw the bus. She knows what buses are for. It was just too much.
I am for you, is what the bus was really saying. I am for you, veteran, so board now and take your ease. We’ll go away together. Let’s go away together, away from wound and memory, into the forgetting soft of night. That’s what the bus was saying.
It was too kind, too much kindness after all of it. She preferred to walk.